I have dreaded the Christmas holidays for as long as I can remember. And, while I know I'm not alone in that, perhaps my reasons are less common than most. You see, I used to hate all the parties, shopping crowds, and the overspending. Well, I haven't had to worry too much about those things, lately. But, I still worry that there will be unpleasantness. This is my personal disease. It's the inability to relax into the present moment. I've thought a lot about this recently. And it occurs to me that, while this is a year-round problem for me, it always seems more pronounced around the holidays. But, I made it through again. Maybe I'm learning. And, we did have a white Christmas!